Who Am I?

I woke up yesterday morning and started getting ready for church, thinking about this HUGE test I have coming on Wednesday. It was all I could think about. I even thought about what I would say in Sunday School when they asked for prayer requests. See, in my little world, I was all I could see.

When time for prayer requests rolls around in Sunday School, everyone mentions their medical test or a death in the family or a friend who is battling cancer. They all seem so big in comparison and I actually decided to keep my mouth shut about the test. After all, who am I to ask for God's prayer for a standarized test when there are so many other huge problems in just that tiny room alone?

That was Satan. God cares for all of our needs and He is God enough to handle anything we bring Him. I counted it small in comparison to those around me, but it was big in my little world. This test has been one that has haunted me for almost six years. I want it behind me. Once and for all.

Well, I mentioned it. I asked for prayer and I believe that I will get it. There are true prayer warriors in that class and I have confidence that they will take all of the prayer requests before the throne of God, including my seemingly "small" one.

Why do we classify things? Why do we think that our problems fade in comparison to others because they aren't as severe or as traumatic? God cares about each and every one of us and whatever we are going through. He commands us to seek His face in all things. Not just the "big" things. God wants us to have the kind of relationship with Him where we feel completely and totally free to bring to His feet whatever burdens we are carrying.

The pastor preached on Israel and the turmoil in God's land today. Could Armaggedon be near? The evidence that we are in the last days is in Revelation, but is this it? Are we on the verge of the Great Tribulation? I don't know. I have no idea. I know what the Bible says and I cling to it, but I don't know if this it. Noone knows except God. Not even Jesus knows the day.

Even with all that's going on in the world, my mind is still focused on my test. Are there more important things that I should be concerned with? Probably, but this is pretty important to me. It doesn't affect anyone else, but it is still extremely important to my life.

God is a big God. He has the ability to handle all things at once and never strain. He carries the worlds' burdens on His shoulders and we never hear Him complain. He wants to lighten my load. He wants me to lay all my cares at His feet. He wants me to lay my head down at night and not be weary. So, that's what I'm doing. The worries of the world and the pain of those close to me still weigh heavy on my heart and will always be on my mind, but God will handle those. God is in control and there is nothing I could do that would even come close to Him.

Who am I to tell God when and how HE should take care of things? Who am I to question His ability to handle the worlds' problems and my own? Who am I to doubt my God?