God - the Great Show-Off

Being a raised in church, I have heard the common saying "God's timing is perfect" so many times that it has become the standard answer for everything in life. While true, it is often not what I want to hear. Especially when I am facing a trial or a test of my faith, the last thing I need is God's timing is perfect.

For the past few years, my husband and I have been trying to expand our family using every avenue possible, but we kept hitting roadblocks and disappointments. The beginning of this year, we started down the long, hard path of fertility. After testing and testing and more testing, we discovered that my body was trying to go into early menopause - not very conducive when we are trying to get pregnant.

Intent on pushing forward and constantly praying, we started fertility treatments. Taking shots every day for 6 days was not fun, but I had the ultimate goal in mind, so I managed. Going in for the procedure, I had so many thoughts running through my head and I had to pray for God to seize my thoughts and let me feel His comfort. And He did.

After testing and shots, the doctor told us there was a 15% that we would get pregnant after the procedure. 15% chance. I closed my eyes and instantly rejoiced, because I knew how my God likes to show up and show off.

The two weeks that followed the procedure were filled with hope and doubt. I had no doubt what God could do, but I questioned what He would do. My God is an awesome God and I knew he could show up in a might way. My biggest fear was that my faith would be shaken if the test came back negative. As much as I wanted a baby, I didn't want my faith to weaken.

This past Sunday, sitting in church, I opened my heart and talked to God. And He answered. I felt a calming hand on my shoulder and a gentle voice in my head simply telling me that He was with me. I knew then that I would rejoice regardless of the test result and embrace the path God has for me. If I was pregnant, then it was an answered prayer. If I wasn't, then God had something bigger in store and I couldn't wait to be a part of it.

This morning, waiting for those two pink lines on the at-home test, I constantly prayed that God would help me through the next few moments and remind me of my promise to rejoice. With my patient and loving husband by my side, we read the results: two pink lines! I kept staring at the test in awe.

Not only did God move, but He showed off! Our very first fertility procedure and we get two beautiful pink lines! After years of trying and praying and waiting, God has blessed us beyond our wildest imaginations. I can't tell enough people how great and wonderful my God truly is!

Would I still be saying this if the test had come out differently? Absolutely. I had already made my peace with the outcome and I was ready to move forward, whichever way it went. God has held me through this and I have no doubt that He will continue to hold me - and our blessing! - in the palm of His hand.

Thank you, Lord, for Your comfort. Your peace. Your grace and Your blessings! I don't deserve Your love, but I know my life would be worthless without it. Thank you for this tremendous blessing and I pray Your hedge of protection around this little one that is already loved so much by so many!