Dreams

Dreams are a funny thing. I'm not referring to the visions we see when we are asleep, but rather our goals and aspirations for our lives. Growing up, I had so many dreams of what I wanted to do career wise when I was older. I wanted to be an actress, a nurse, a marine biologist, a vetrinarian, a pediatrician, a lawyer, a teacher, a journalist, a cop, and an FBI agent.
As I grew up, I had several odd jobs that encompassed one or more of my aspirations in some form. While I was never a nurse, I did work four years at a hospital and helped the nurses tend to patients. I was never a cop or an FBI agent, but I worked seven months at 911. I may not have been able to be a pediatrician or nurse or a cop, but I have had wonderful work experiences growing up.
I taught high school for two years and while I thought that was what I was meant to do with my life, things just didn't work out the way I planned and I was forced to make a career change. Now, working at a law firm, I have the same struggles I had before. A part of me wonders if I made the right decision to give up on teaching, while another part of me enjoys the legal profession.
I like to ask my nieces what they want to be when they grow up and hear their excitement as they tell me their dreams. We only get one chance on earth and I want to make the most of it. When it's time for me to retire, will I look back and say that I was happy with my career choice or did I simply settle?
Dreams are meant to bring pleasure and purpose into our lives. There is no perfect job and there is no perfect career, but that doesn't stop me from dreaming about it. My husband has been asking the hypothetical question about if we were sitting at a restaurant and God sat down across the table from us and He granted us two questions that we could ask, what would they be? A lot of people, including my husband, as mentioned asking God if they had continued down the path He had laid out for them in life, or something to that effect. I don't think I could ask that question for fear of His response.
My biggest fear is failing God and making Him unhappy with my decisions. I don't know what God wants me to do. I know only what's in my own heart and sometimes, even that's unclear. I do know that I have a wonderfuly Savior who has blessed me with a tremendous family. My husband and I attend a caring church that makes me feel warm and welcome. We have a fabulous dog who we love to spoil. I guess there's really nothing more in life that I could want.